11/29/25

The rear view window is enticing. to look back while moving forward becomes a trap of self. I have work to do always sit with a little bit of anxiety in my chest and hear, working on that. The goal here is to develop the best life possible that out lasts mood swings and financial woes. I need to take a step back more often, a deep breath more often. Now that the days are short, and getting shorter for a little longer, I crave sleep and slow days, early morning writing and first meal at noon.

It is a need to write. to settle down into it more than I am able to without writing. It being the day, life, the moment, myself. There is no need to describe myself to my self but find myself trying anyway, or coming from that angle to understand myself better. The space heater is on, a pile of my dirty laundry to the left of our bed. I think of you down the hall and wonder when you will join me to sleep.